Let's Be Honest

I'm not doing very well on my "weight loss program".

Even though my hubbs has publicly announced our competition, still I am lacking motivation.

I even started out with a bang, lost 4 pounds already..and still not enough motivation for me to keep going.

What is wrong with me? Food is just SOOO delicious!!

Could my problem be the amount of times I have attempted and failed to stay the course, starting off determined, only to veer off the road to stop for some pancakes..or a whole loaf of fresh french bread?



I decided to go to Weight Watchers on Monday..I set up a plan for the kiddos to hang with my Mom so I could go weigh in and sign up for the program. I'm a huge fan of WW. Sitting in a room with people struggling with their weight just like me is a huge comfort. See, I am "the big one" in the family. I haven't always been though. I used to be in very good shape and somewhere around between my 25th and 26th birthdays, I gained 50 pounds.

Even when I'm "skinny", I'm not a small person by any means. At 5'6" I'm about as tall as the average American woman. But skinny to me is somewhere around 155 pounds, what I weighed in high school. When I look back at pictures I just can't believe how obsessed I was all the time, thinking I was FAT!! When I met my hubby, I was pretty comfy around 170...but that's when the 50 pounds started to creep onto my already non waify frame.

With both of my kids, I tipped the scale around 256 the days I gave birth to them and I am proud to say that just about a year after the baby was born, here I sit weighing 210. Those 46 pounds were not easy to take off..OK except the first 20 or so since we are being honest.. she was 8 pounds and of course I was in so much pain after a horrible C Section and a spinal headache that eating was not on my list of things to do during my hospital stay..I left 4 days after her birthday weighing 17 pounds lighter.

At any rate..I had my plan on Monday to weigh in at the big WW.

Well that didn't work out.

Instead, I went to the roller skating rink with my kids and some family, treating myself to a large pretzel with cheese please, and then there was the Mc Donald's for dinner. Oy vey!!!

So today is Wednesday. I still want to go to WW. There's a meeting tonite and Daddy can stay home with the kids. For those of you (all of you, I think) who read hubbys blog..

I really really really want that ring.